www.reddit.com/r/exmuslim/

For context: we live in Europe (and I’m very lucky and grateful for that). I am 17 and have a few brothers and sisters, and my two parents.

We are from the Middle East, they are Muslims but I am not.

My journey is a little different because I don’t even know if I can call myself an ex-Muslim since I have never been Muslim. I have never believed in any religion, including Islam.

As for my character and personality, I am a deep thinker, I am very attracted to modernity, improving, and wondering how we can make people and society more pleasant and better, my brain just works like that, because it always likes to think and ask questions. Things to see holes in the law that we can fix and things we can add. I am not traditional or conventional and I like to rethink the world.

The thing is, I feel like my potential and my mind are stuck in this prison, that’s my family, I’m always with them because of money. I can’t move alone yet, so I have to hold on; all they talk about is praying, and how men should act manly, how women should act a certain way, how people should dress, the only plan they have for us is to get married and have children. I don’t want either one. And the thing that frustrates me the most, they talk about hell and paradise, who goes to hell, who doesn’t go, what do I have to do to go to paradise, and what not. I find this all completely stupid, so extremely stupid. I don’t mean to be provocative or anything, but it’s just my feeling.

Most of the time when I’m with them I feel angry. Their bigotry has hurt millions and millions of people around the world, and I just can’t stand with these people knowing that they believe in things like that.

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I am jealous of others

It’s so damn unfair. Why was I born with all these burdens and pain? The whole world is having fun, but we Muslims are experiencing so much. We cannot live. We can’t fucking live. I’m jealous of my girlfriend. She is Bulgarian, and in their culture they dance and sing, wear revealing clothes, drink and throw big parties and she enjoys it all. It’s not fair. I couldn’t live. My neighbors right now are Indian Muslims, and they had a big party. They have music, dancing, etc. I can hear them laughing and playing and stuff while I’m sitting at home.

Here I get a lecture about the Koran from my extremely religious father. It’s so damn unfair, I hate everything, damn Islam, such a piece of shit religion. Fuck Islam.

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I plan to leave the house with a hijab and come home without it!

My parents definitely wouldn’t approve of me taking it off, but I can’t take it anymore. It becomes extremely mentally difficult and tiring to have to put it on my head every time I leave the house, when we have male guests in the house.

So I might want to be able to return home without it one day in the coming weeks or months. But if I don’t have anyone with me when I do that, I’ll die as soon as I step inside. I want to bring some friends who I can trust when I do that. But that person can’t be with me all the time. Eventually they will have to go and I will be left alone to face my fate. Maybe they’ll beat me until I die, or I really don’t know what they’ll do. They threatened me before and said they would kill me if I ever took it off.

Another option is to let my university know what I am going to do and let them support me. Or let the police know and talk to my dad before I do that (I don’t know if the police would do something like that in Canada).

Yeah, I just really want to see what everyone thinks about the best options.

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Islam forbids the most random, dumbest shit

 

1. Don’t listen to music.
2. Don’t celebrate birthdays
3. Do not touch dogs or keep them as pets.
4. No alcohol
5. No yoga
6. No adoption of children
7. No dancing, singing, modeling or acting.
8. Don’t enjoy your life. Be miserable.
9. Don’t play chess
10. Don’t sign
11. Don’t ask questions
12. Don’t hesitate
13. Eating with the right hand
14. No piercings
15. No gold rings
16. No bikini
17. No concerts
18. No nightclubs
19. Don’t play games with dice.
20. No tongues or sex with boyfriends
21. Never no threesome
22. Outside under supervision

 What is allowed is criminal, oppressive, violent, imperialistic, destructive.

1. Trade in slaves
2. Marry multiple wives
3. Beat your wife
4. Sex with POWs!
5. Force the unbeliever to the narrow part of the road
6. Collect the humiliating Jizya tax
7. Child marriage
8. Islamize and make Islam superior
9. Stone adulterers
10. Stone homosexuals
11. Beheading Islam critics
12. Killing apostates

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I went for Umrah

So I went to Umrah because of my family. I wasn’t expecting much, but somehow it was even worse than I imagined. It was one of the most miserable experiences of my life and I hated every second of it. It was unbearable and their level of madness was terrifying. I hate how obsessed and crazy my parents are about it, especially my mom. I’m so tired of her constantly reminding me to pray, constantly talking about Allah and Mohammed…

I can’t handle it anymore. It was terrifying to see so many people so blindly devoted to these people who will literally kill for this religion, who see nothing wrong with it. It made me realize how deep this brainwashing goes and the worst part was that I pretended to be fasting, my body suffered and I had to pretend I was fine so no one would suspect anything. I hate everything about this religion. I hate having to pretend I hate it. This experience only confirmed what I already knew. Islam is BS.

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The simple reason why Islam is so widespread: they are the only ones who try to convert others by force.

“Wow! Our religion is so popular! 2 billion people strong and counting! Definitely concrete proof that it is the right one.”

Meanwhile, centuries ago:

• Greetings unbeliever!
• Back…
• Repent or die! [ Surah 9:5 ]
• OK.

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What was my life like as a Muslim and ex-Muslim

I had a lot of suicidal thoughts when I was religious, due to the fact that I was open-minded about a merciful God who was truly merciful and the fact that I never really felt like I had any control over my own life.

Now that I’ve completely rejected any concept of an afterlife, I no longer think suicide is a viable solution. By coming to the acceptance that I gain nothing from death, I became much more focused on taking the life I now had more seriously and making something of it. I used to be completely unmotivated. Now I feel a lot better.

I don’t know if there is such a thing as free will, but leaving Islam was probably the closest I’ve ever felt. It was such a relief to finally throw away something I had only been indoctrinated into.

As for my purpose now, it’s about making things better for others. Learning about history and politics makes me feel that everyone, no matter how small, has some kind of effect on humanity as a whole, gradually going from literal cavemen to astronauts in space, so I think it is a noble endeavor to help humanity more and more strive for discovery in any way possible so that it can perhaps find the meaning of life in the future. I believe that you create your own purpose and that it is much better to find one for yourself than to be given one.

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My hijab story.

i was 11 when i got my period and one day my sister asked me if i wanted to go to the park with her and i said yes, BUT she had one condition that i had to adhere to which was that she wear a hijab, i just said no, she insisted and said you won’t come with us unless you wear it, so i cried a lot, and my family laughed at me and thought it was funny, so i had to say it over my head so they would let me go. When we reached the park, I refused to leave the car while carrying it and felt very sad. Again, my sister insisted and said, “If you’re not going to wear it, you’re going to stay in the car,” so I didn’t and I stayed in the car alone, thinking about how my life will change forever and how I won’t do it again.

I have no choice or control over my life, which is why I gradually developed depression at the age of 11. I’m 22 now, I’m still depressed because of all the injustice I suffered because of Islam and the Muslims around me (my family, my school who also enforced this, etc.). I just wanted to say this because I’ve been thinking a lot about my life lately.

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My mother thinks I was “born Muslim” so I must be Muslim.

I’m not generally an angry person, but this argument makes me irrationally angry because of how damn brainless it is. Bitch, I can’t inherit religion by blood. Acts like it’s a race or something. And no matter how many times I explain this to her, she doesn’t understand. I wouldn’t be surprised if there is a link between Islamic devotion and brain damage. By “born Muslim” in this context I mean that she thinks I have Islam in my DNA, so I have to live like a Muslim

(which isn’t a choice is the color of my hair I was born with, not my beliefs lol)

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My story from growing up as a Muslim to becoming an ex-Muslim

Hello everyone, I wanted to share my experience with Islam and how it affected me. When I was younger, I was born a Muslim, but the logic of Islam never came naturally to me. I just followed the rules because that’s what I had to do, but besides that I just lived my life, had my own values ​​and opinions and didn’t really care about traditional things and the culture of my parents’ home country. However, when I was fourteen, I began to feel depressed and hopeless and looked to religion for answers. I became a devoutly religious person and really believed in it. Besides the religion Islam, I also started reading about the culture of my home country. And at first it was really interesting to read it. Especially if you are an anxious autistic teenager trying to understand everything around me. The strict rules of my religion and my culture gave me structure. I thought ‘YES’ now I have rules that are clear to me and that I can follow. So for a while, the rigidity of Islam gave me comfort.

However, the more I delved into it, the more I felt like I was losing myself in it. The strict rules that gave me comfort in the beginning also started to suffocate me. I was always the free-spirited type and also the critical type, so religion did not come naturally to me. My life experiences as an autistic girl and third generation immigrant made me feel out of place in my city and the people around me, I felt like I was not on the same page as them. So I started to isolate myself socially and that turned me into a person who analyzed everything. I eventually left Islam when I was 16 because I saw it as just an ancient scripture rather than something divine.

I think it’s important that we stay true to ourselves and not feel like we have to conform to someone else’s standards. It’s okay to question things and come to your own conclusions. I hope that by sharing my experiences I can help others who may be going through something similar.

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I escaped an arranged marriage in Pakistan and now I have absolutely no idea what to do.. Help!!

I’m 24 years old and a German national, but my own story is that I had to spend my entire (secret) savings to leave Pakistan after my parents “took me there on holiday”, only to force me into a marriage to a 60-year-old factory manager with no return/way out for me. I was in the final year of my master’s degree and had to deliver a thesis in two months. I think they thought that once I got the degree, I would be too “independent” or something to get married like they wanted. I literally had to steal my own passport back from my mother while she was sleeping, and trust a bunch of random rickshaw/taxi drivers to take me to the airport so I could buy a ticket back to NL. Needless to say, I have no contact with them at all, but it is a very harsh reality to wake up and know that you no longer have a home anywhere. I was temporarily staying with my best friend and just finished my studies (yes!!), but since she is also moving, I have no permanent place to live. She honestly saved my life and without her I would probably be completely homeless and with an unfinished education. I’m currently staying in hostels and among friends, but being completely broke and suddenly without a support system feels so impossible sometimes.

I guess I’m just annoyed that I got completely screwed by a bunch of religious nutcases that I was basically born into.

I’ve heard of horror stories like this before, but honestly, I never expected this to happen to me and for it to happen like this. My parents didn’t give any serious indication that they were extremists or anything, and I was completely blindsided. In the past, when I was a teenager, I was also quite open about religious doubts, but they didn’t mind that at the time as long as I didn’t do drugs or hang out with boys. They have had guys introduced to me in the past to marry but I always said I wasn’t ready for that and I would think about all those things in the future after my education was completed and they acted like they fully understood. I don’t know their full motivation for what they did and honestly I don’t think anything justifies it so I’m not sure I want to know.

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Islam is the cruelest faith on earth

It’s pretty obvious that Islam is bad because they have so many horrible laws that shouldn’t even exist. Islam is cruel, most people don’t know the truth about it. except that lies are taught in school that it is all holy and good. If so, why the fuck do they beat gays, or kill innocent Christians, or have terrorist groups? Islam is not a religion of peace, but a religion of hatred and terror. It’s no better than Nazism and Communism. Fuck Islam, I hope one day people see the real evil of it. and do not follow it. I’m a Buddhist now…

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Muslims hate Jews [2021]

“I can’t get over the fact that my mother, my whole family, who have never seen, spoken to or met a Jewish person in their entire damn lives, hate the Jews so much. When it comes to Christians, it’s a little different for them, but Jews? Oh no, no, they look at them as inhuman beings, lowlifes who want them all dead, even little babies. Every time a Jewish person comes into their minds, there’s nothing to do but spit on the ground and swear.”

These are people who have not personally harmed them. Ahhh, damn, how can you hate someone for no reason just because some pedophile asshole told you to? Muslims have no opinion of their own. I hate religion more than anything in this asshole world. Wishing death on Jewish babies while conveying love for Muslim babies is disgusting. A baby is a baby. What the hell did they do? And all the other people who have nothing to do with this damn Islam.

Apologies for this. It’s because of all this Israel/Palestinian shit going on, my whole family is cursing them, and I can’t say anything back.

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Very confused help

Hello everyone, I’m 17 years old and I’m currently a non-believer, but would like to believe in Islam, but I just can’t. I had a very traumatic experience with Islam and Muslims at Quranic school. My teacher used to beat us when we couldn’t read our surahs properly and our teacher also called us whores (we were 8-10 years old). Later in my teenage years I read some verses and it scared me. I told my mother I was unsure about the religion and she immediately thought I had a boyfriend, which was weird, and threatened to arrange a marriage. I was treated badly by my mother for not wearing the hijab (I do everyone’s laundry, I can’t go out, sometimes I clean the whole house every day) and am still treated like shit and she constantly threatens to kick me out and she has, but she always wants me to come back (she is bipolar and physically and mentally abused). I don’t know what to do. All my Muslim friends say I learned it the wrong way, but I have seen what happens to Muslims who become unbelievers. And with other girls all over the world. Even in my own family, my uncle tried to push my cousin off the balcony because he said Prophet Muhammad married a nine-year-old. They say it’s the culture, but how come most of them are Muslims?

Believe me, if I even spoke about the religion in a “controversial” way, I would be beaten up. That’s happened before. But then again, I’m a non-believer because of all the trauma and I’ve seen what Islam has done to innocent women. But I have a strong fear of hell, that’s what it is. I want to believe in something, but all other religions are just as weird.

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Organized religious online classes

I’m in a Quran class that I’ve had to attend for two years now, it’s sad, it hurts and I’m sick of having to do this. I have always cheated and always will, the ‘guilt’ I felt went away when I left the religion, but lately I’ve been getting the feeling that something is going to happen, like my parents will find out that I’m not really learning, because how can I explain that I haven’t memorized anything from the 600 pages, it’s going to be difficult if they know, mind you, I’m also a forced hijabi and my parents are very strict, I can’t talk to them about it or express my opinion, I cannot of course come out as an ex-Muslim. I’m only 13 years old and I’ve been forced to do this shit since I was 10. I will probably be forced to follow Islam until I die, I tried to end it once because I know I will never be free. I’m also a lesbian, it hurts me to see the horrible ways people want to torture me for wanting to be myself, all the insults I’ve received and the pain I’ve experienced, I can’t bear it anymore, feeling like I don’t deserve life and that I’m a mistake, all this is too much for me and I can’t escape it.

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Confused and lost

I have a lot on my mind and no one to talk to about it. I think I wanted to post here because I know the women here understand this better than anyone. So I’m still Muslim. I don’t see myself ever leaving Islam because of the fear of God and hell. But the pain I feel when I read certain hadiths and verses about women is unlike any pain I have ever felt. No matter how hard she works to please Allah, it will never be enough for her to have a husband for herself in Jannah. For me, I always stayed away from men because I thought I could experience love or have sex with different men in Jannah. Then I find out that I can’t even have one man for myself. The only explanation I get is: you will not experience jealousy in Jannah, you will be happy. If that is the case, why are men’s desires fully fulfilled, while ours are changed to suit men? Why haven’t men’s desires changed and why aren’t they made to be happy with one woman? Why do women always have to consider men? If jealousy doesn’t exist, why can’t both men and women have multiple partners? What is the reward of a woman who suffered so much pain seeing her husband marry a second wife in this world? The only reward I see is that her husband will have more wives in Jannah and Allah will take away her jealousy. Does this mean her pain was in vain?

Sorry, I know I’m rambling, but I just feel so lost. I could have dealt with the pain in this world if I knew I could have everything I wanted in heaven, but it seems that’s not the case. The most painful feeling is thinking that nothing you ever do will be enough and that your pain means nothing and is in vain. That your pain is just a joke for Muslim men/scholars and they just sit there and laugh at my concerns. It’s men who call me an emotional woman and have absolutely no empathy for me. They will spend an hour describing a whore and her physical characteristics, but as soon as a woman asks what she will get, they say, “Don’t worry about it.” Or they scold me and tell me that I need to work on my faith. But why is it okay for a man to ask all the details about his whores and how many he gets? Women also need something to motivate them.

I no longer understand the purpose of my life and I see no happiness or peace in my future. I don’t want to get married because why would I ever want to marry a Muslim man who will never love me the way I would want to be loved or even respected as a human being with my own thoughts/feelings. At this point I don’t know if I even believe in love anymore. I mean, all men are made to be polygamous. He will cheat on you at some point or marry another woman. You will never be enough for him. I don’t know what I want anymore, I wish things were turned around for one day and men could experience the pain that some Muslim women feel.

I’ve been lost for months and I just needed to get this off my chest.

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Atheist

I’m so damn angry because everyone around me has been brainwashed. Every argument I ever make will be refuted with absolute bs, and I am the fool who knows nothing about Islam and they are the righteous. I always remind myself that Muslims have a mind of their own that will never be compatible with theism, but now I can’t ignore how damn angry it makes me. Luckily I live in a western country, but there is a huge Muslim population and I really can’t stand them. I’ve had religious nonsense shoved down my throat all my life. I can’t take it anymore. I hope this religion dies.

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Zo funking irritant

I’m so tired of waking up to someone shouting nonsense at the top of their lungs from the mosque. I don’t care about your noise pollution. LET ME SLEEP.

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Ranting as an atheist in a Muslim country

I feel like I don’t belong

I would never intentionally hurt anyone or anyone else, but it is becoming increasingly clear as I get older that that is not the way my fellow humans think of me.

Everyone hates anyone who isn’t like them. Am I fucking crazy for not hating other random groups of people? Like I live in a Muslim majority country and the amount of hatred and bigotry towards any ‘other’ is fucking insane. I HATE organized religion and living in a place where everyone thinks the same way, acts the same way, it’s a fucking nightmare. They say all this nonsense about being tolerant and peaceful, but if I say I’m an atheist, I’ll be fired, disowned, and maybe imprisoned and executed. Not to mention the multitudes of public figures who have received death threats or had to leave the country for speaking out, authors who have had lawsuits filed against them and their lives ruined for daring to oppose mainstream religion. I hate it here.

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I miss my country so much

So a few months ago me and my family moved to a western country and I thought, yes, I don’t have to live in fear of being exposed and killed anymore. But it’s only now that I realize how much worse the muzzies are here. In the Muslim-majority country I come from, people are so much more tolerant. I almost never received comments for not wearing a hijab or for not praying. They talk like crazy about how close the Day of Judgment is and mention all the different types of torture that Allah will put sinners through. But it never bothered me when I wore a short-sleeved shirt there and I miss my country so much now. I miss my relatives there, they talked about so many things other than just religion, unlike my relatives here. ALL DAY, ALL THE FUCKING DAY THEY TALK ABOUT ISLAM. And they are so damn sexist, homophobic and racist. I’m so done with them and you want to know what’s worse? I have seen children wearing NIQAB here. I have seen children in my country wearing a hijab, but not a niqab

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Allah speaks (not)

Like probably many of you, I prayed a lot before leaving Islam for Allah to speak to me or give me a sign, but nothing came. And this is after more than twenty years of being a devout Muslim. While Allah was always ready to talk to Mo to fulfill all his sexual desires and more.

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Why is it okay to criticize child marriage, misogyny, and other kinds of fucked up Muslim traditions, but not okay to say that Islam itself is bad?

So many ‘woke’ people still defend Muslims, despite their twisted practices. They kill and rape people. They are terrorists. They are violent and angry. They like war.

I’m so tired of non-Muslim people who don’t know anything or have first-hand experiences about being Muslim. Yet they defend Muslims as if they know nonsense.

My grandfather was a Muslim terrorist, he slaughtered people and bragged about eating them. We used to live in a predominantly Muslim area where we feared for our lives every minute. They treated my mother like a slave and she was regularly beaten up just because she was a woman.

When I talk about how terrible my experience as a Muslim was, I am attacked by people and called Islamophobic, as if they were the ones afraid that they would die at any moment. I hate to wake up people who think Muslims are oppressed and feel the need to defend them. They have NO knowledge about Islam and act as if they are heroes defending the oppressed Muslims.

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Quran summarized is:

(30% recommend killing and hating non-Muslims. 20% Fairy tales and pseudoscience stolen from other religions/civilizations 20% Fear mongering 15% Momo’s sexual problems and adventures 10% Shitting on women 5% Babble even Muslims don’t understand.

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Sex-obsessed religion

I hate being forced to live a double life. I hate hiding my true self. I hate pretending I don’t live in the same household with obsessed people. They care what you eat, with which HAND you drink, how you sit (as a woman, don’t sit with your legs open, not even in pants, not even at home, not even with your own brother in front of you). They say you should text 24/7 to tell them where you are and who you are with, even if you are a young adult woman. You are not allowed to wear certain clothes, laugh loudly, have fun too often. Don’t dye your hair like this, don’t shake a man’s hand, don’t stay too close to a man. This damn religion that even tells you how to SHIT. Literal. You must use your LEFT HAND to wipe your butt. You have to accept every stupid thing in this book. It doesn’t matter, even if it goes against basic logic and human reason. TO ACCEPT! Allah knows best!!

You should pray 5 times a day. It’s not a choice. You have to. You don’t want that!? Do you want to end up in hell?!

I don’t give a shit if imaginary fire is a punishment for being a normal human being. A fucking sex-obsessed, pointless religion based on things a pedophile said a thousand years ago. How is it holy if you are willing to kill your own children because they are sinful?!

And it doesn’t matter to me if they say “they’re not all Muslims”. It doesn’t matter. If you support this religion, you are either a terrible person or you have no idea what the “holy book” says. And the second is even more pathetic because they are too afraid to read the book and admit that it is monstrous, so they just interpret it as they see fit.

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I’m seriously so annoyed

I am a young Muslim (14nb) The more I learn about this religion, the more disgusted I become. I can’t leave this religion because I will be kicked out of my home and my education will be ruined, one more reason is my mother, she is a narcissist, she has told me several times that she would remove me if I leave Islam, I am seriously afraid of that.

I’m honestly confused and don’t know what to do

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Girls, how do you live your life in a Muslim majority country?

Sorry it’s midnight and my brother sent me a video of him and his friend swimming at the beach today, shit that made me wish I could be a man for once. I’m 20 and I never liked being on the beach because it’s “HARAM” and men will look at you, even if I sit with my mother and my sister with modest clothes (only showing the face and hands) you can obviously see men looking at us without blinking! Running outside as a sport is also haram, cycling, or just having fun as a woman is haram. And just wearing damn pants or a t-shirt is also haram

I just realized that I don’t have fond memories of playing or having hobbies because everything is haram. All I remember is being locked in the house or cleaning/cooking for the family.

I don’t understand how people can tell you with a straight face that Islam honors women!

You don’t even have the choice to take off the hijab because you might get one

I’m afraid I’m getting old because I have fun when I get the chance to leave the country

What was it like for you?

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Are there any ex-Muslim girls who still wear hijab?

I am 25 and stopped following Islam more than two years ago. For years I watched many of my friends take off their hijab and live normally. I can’t help but be jealous of them. There’s no way for me to ever take it off or convince my brothers so I’m just stuck here feeling like I’m not really myself and the best I can do is wear a turban and show my neck but I feel like that will never happen. be a day I can proudly leave home without. And before anyone suggests moving or traveling, it’s impossible for me. I can’t even go anywhere alone and honestly I know I’ll die before I can ever do what I really want, so when I come here and see everyone taking off the hijab I feel so alone and unseen… Are there any other girls like me?

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How did you get rid of the prejudices that were instilled in your minds through indoctrination?

Exactly what the title says. The old me looked down on people who didn’t look like me (for example: people who didn’t wear a hijab, showed a little skin, people who had had “pre-marital sex” or people who were dating, basically non-Muslims, gays, etc.) I started questioning this religion over the past few months and after so much struggle came to the conclusion that it’s just not for me. However, I still believe in a higher power but don’t want to follow any religion. I feel so damn brainwashed and disgusted with myself for judging others when they are nothing but living their lives and they have not wronged me in any way. How I was told to hate certain people and how they all go to hell. I know that getting rid of this influence and undoing the indoctrination is a slow process and takes a lot of time, but I am impatient and it is taking a toll on my mental health. Even now that I judge people or subconsciously think that this is haRaM, I feel very bad when I realize what I am doing. I know that people who are not Muslim are not obligated to follow the rules of Islam, but I still can’t help but feel that way and hate them, even if I really hate them for doing so. I don’t know what to do to gain freedom of mind. It would be very helpful if you share your experiences and how you freed yourself from all those prejudices.

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I have a question I’ve been thinking about for days about creating people out of mud

Are humans really made of mud, as the Quran says? I would really like to know. Is there actually any scientific reason to prove this belief? I think people are based on carbon. So the Abrahamic story is literally a Golem spell.

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Crazy how religion can change people

While I was Muslim (not even committed, just as a title), I had friends and buddies to talk to. No one really cared that I offered my prayers or performed my worship, and everyone wished that God would guide me on the right path, etc. Parents and friends tried to advise me, but that was it.

After I became an atheist, I kept it a secret from everyone because I still live in an Arab country where the majority of the population is Muslim. Until one day I accidentally revealed to my best friend of 4.5 years that I was an atheist. At first he tried to guide me back to the “right path,” and I thought it was sweet of him that he cared so much, and that he didn’t want to see me burn in hell.

But things escalated; he started to hate my guts and called me all kinds of names and was disgusted by my profanity saying he didn’t want to see me anymore. However, I’m an unflappable person so it didn’t bother me that much. What did disturb me was not that he repeatedly called me an unbeliever, an apostate, or a foolish person. It was he who threatened to inform my family and my mentally unstable brother. My mother would break down if she knew I had left and told everyone I was a nonbeliever.

The “best friend” now says he knows how to handle me. When I ask how, he responds with, “I have my own way of doing things, and I’m going to hold you where it hurts” (a metaphor for saying that he will do something that will hit me hard). Even people at my university, if I had even the slightest conversation with them and they sensed that I was an unbeliever, they would treat me like the devil and say, “If you were really an atheist, I wouldn’t even sit/talk to you.”

You know, to me it’s all the same. I’ve always been lonely since I was 13 (a long time ago) and never really had any friends (not even fake ones) so I’m kind of used to it. Writing this even feels normal to me. I think living with Arabs has conditioned me really well, despite the most difficult expectations. Anyway, I can’t be myself because that will be a threat to my life. Unfortunately, due to my financial situation, I cannot leave and live in a safer environment. So I’m stuck here in a fanatical Arabic speaking Allah worshiping country with no way out, lol.

I’m really sorry that I wrote a whole paper about my life story, but I just wanted to share it with someone. See you guys.

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I have officially left Islam!

For me, becoming an ex-Muslim is not a decision you make overnight. It is actually a long process because of the years of indoctrination that much of our family and community has put us through.

 

One of the first steps in the process of leaving Islam is rebellion. For me, one of the first things I started doing was having a boyfriend (we are still happy together and he is my whole world, I love him so much). Then I started speaking out about certain things in Islam that are terrible (misogyny, deaths of apostates, sex slavery, polygyny, etc.). And then I started wearing tight clothes with my hijab until I finally took it off. And now I wear crop tops, tube tops, shorts without any worries. But even then, I still called myself a “follower of Islam.”

 

It wasn’t until one afternoon that I just sat on my bed and said to myself, ‘I don’t believe in Islam, I don’t agree with the way Islam treats these other people, it’s terrible, it’s a cult, I hate it. , and I’m completely done with it.” Honestly, it was like a breath of fresh air to finally admit it, like a heavy mountain had been lifted from my shoulders.

 

While I don’t believe in any form of organized religion, I do believe in SOMETHING. I call myself a spiritual person, and I want to look into Wicca/witchcraft or something like that… hmmm I don’t know. I call myself an agnostic, I want to believe in a being, without having to limit myself to some sect.

 

Anyway, it just feels good to finally feel like I’m in charge of my life now, and there’s no cult in my life. Ahhhh ☺️

 

Fuck de Islam!

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Why don’t gods prove their existence?

The most annoying thing is that I am expected to dedicate my entire life to believing in a god who has given me no proof of their existence. It doesn’t even take much, just something to prove it. I swear if there really were any decent evidence, people would be perfect believers and worshipers.

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Female genital mutilation

I don’t even know how to start talking about this, I live in a normal, quite Arab country (or so I thought)! There isn’t a lot of female genital mutilation happening around us and I am very vocal about my feminist beliefs and the support of women in my family.

I remember talking about female genital mutilation a few times when news broke about people in Egypt and Sudan having genital mutilation and saying how shitty it is and how thankful our country doesn’t have much of that and my mother agreed…

Anyway, today I found out that literally almost everyone in my family has been mutilated, there are several types of female genital mutilations, the smallest is cutting off the skin around the clit and the main one is that everything is cut off and sewn up and they leave a small hole for menstruation.

The type of female genital mutilation that my family does is the second type I think (half of the clitoris is cut off), but my mother, aunts and grandmother have type where you cut off the entire clitoris, now luckily I am not mutilated because my mother was against it.

But I just can’t get over that fact! How did I live for 24 years without knowing that almost all the women in my family suffered in silence and that some still do this to their own daughters! It’s such a frightening fact and I don’t know how any of them justify it.

My mother told me that their reasoning is that it keeps women pure because they won’t have impure thoughts and will never get horny unless it’s with their husbands. It’s so sick and twisted and hard to deal with.

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We must marry you, otherwise we would be sinning as parents.”

Is there anything in Islam that is not a sin?

Do Muslim parents do something for the happiness of their children and not for the cosmic balance between Sawab in sin ?

They don’t let their children study art, learn to sing or play an instrument, socialize, become independent, learn to drive a car, date at the right age – let alone have friends of the opposite sex. Yet they want you to quietly marry the stranger they chose for you and have a few children out of it.

Is everything worship for Muslims? You marry for Allah, you love your wife for Allah, you kiss your wife because sunnah is, you fuck for Allah, you make children for Allah, you eat for Allah, you piss for Allah, you kill for Allah, you die for Allah.

Literally everything in Islam is about control, power and violence. Why did people allow this fascist ideology to spread so far?

Why the hell are people so determined to import this soulless death cult all over the world, especially the West? Is their civilization really in decline?  Are they willing to give up their art, music, sculpture, women’s rights and secularism because they want to appease a foreign religion that hates them?

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If Muhammad existed today, progressive Muslims would call him an extremist.

I just find it funny because the Muslims who exhibit the most actions similar to those of the Prophet Mohammed are the ones from Isis, the Taliban, Al Qaeda, Boko Haram. Name any “extremist” Muslim group and compare their actions to the actions of Mohammed and Sahabas and the similarities are uncanny, the same groups that progressive Muslims label as true Muslims. Funny

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One of my core memories is traumatizing

When I was a kid in primary school, the teacher made us draw, yes I know it’s haram, but I don’t know. Anyway, I drew a picture of a snowman and a Christmas tree. The teacher went crazy, she shamed and humiliated me in front of the whole class for drawing this and said, “It’s haram! This is taqlid! Don’t be like kufars! You’ll go to hell!” Literally I was 7 or 8. I hate this cult.

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I think I’m leaving Islam, but I’m still scared. 

I am a Turkish woman. I grew up in an extremely Islamic and Erdogan family. My parents are members of the largest Islamic sect in Turkiye.

I went to an Islamic school. I thought this was the best decision I ever made. I started wearing the hijab when I was 10 because I thought it looked cool. My grandmother was against it because it was too early for me, she was right. I took it off in the summer because it was hot. Things were going well until I got my first period. My parents (especially my father) forced me to wear the hijab. I didn’t want to wear it, so I lied about it until my younger brother found out. My father got angry with me and hit me. That’s still a trauma for me, I was 13.

My father doesn’t even want me to listen to foreign music because he thinks it’s sinful. He used to say, “I want my daughter to be religious like me, but she likes kafir men!” I started hiding my social media accounts and my phone from them because I knew what they would do to me. I started lying more.

In 8th grade I started to doubt the things they were teaching me. The teacher told me that Ataturk made people kafir, but he didn’t. They told me that Erdogan saved us from the Kaffirs, but he didn’t. I never told my family about my critical questions because I didn’t want to be beaten again.

I didn’t want to go to Islamic classes in high school, but they wouldn’t let me and I forced myself to. It was terrible. Students who didn’t wear hijab were forced to wear it, if not you were a slut who should be ashamed of themselves. Islamic teachers were even worse. If they don’t like you, they turn into a nightmare. I started asking more and more questions, but I was really scared.

I realized that Muslim people are terrible. They are against having fun, falling in love, women’s rights, basic human rights, dancing, singing/listening to music, science, etc. If they can’t do it, then neither can you. You can’t have opposing opinions about them.

When I was 17 or 19, I discovered other religions and started to doubt even more. Because there are more peaceful religions and opinions that do not see me as a sex slave and birth machine. It made me feel more comfortable.

Months ago, when I was arguing with my dad about watching volleyball, I started thinking, “This is disgusting! Why can’t I watch women play sports?”

So I don’t consider myself a Muslim anymore, but I’m still afraid of it. I want to be peaceful, I want to take off the hijab again, I want to drink, I want to do what I want. I’m studying for a university exam and it seems like this is the only escape for me.

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Staff. Brother and father may say that they cannot control themselves.

I live in Kuwait, so please observe the standards. I wanted to wear this dress that covers my thigh. My mother yelled at me because my brother and father “couldn’t control themselves.” Then she asked my brother to ask if it was okay, and he said no. I argued because I said it’s my body and my choice, and that I don’t care about boys, and that I never care what people think of me, and that I never care about people staring at me and that it’s my body and MY choice. .

I am not allowed to wear shorts, tops, skirts or anything ‘tight’. It really sucks because it’s literally my body.

I’m really annoyed that my own father can’t control himself when I’m around them, and I’m even more annoyed that my older brother can’t control himself when I’m around them. He was one of my best friends and I just can’t believe it.

I feel sick, my mother called me a disgrace and said if I got raped that would be fine because it would be my own fault.

Please help, I feel stuck. My country has no shelters, and the laws promote patriarchy and we have no law other than Sharia law. All my money belongs to my father and I’m really stuck.

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Muslims who bring negativity.

Do you ever feel the misery in the air when you are surrounded by Muslims in public? I do and it’s horrible. Yesterday I was in a festival type environment and the atmosphere was just awful. Do you know why? Because many Muslims believe that music is haram, they become angry every time they hear music, probably because they think of the fact that Allah hates music and will torture them in hell for listening to music. Wherever Muslims go, they can never integrate because otherwise they will be tormented by Allah and all they can think about is whether they will go to hell after death or not. They live in this world, but their thoughts are elsewhere. It’s 2024, but sad that Muslims are thousands of years behind. No wonder many Muslim countries are a failure, they are stuck in a time period that is long gone and they want to force everyone to live in that time period.

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My father knows my truth: what should I do?

I’m an atheist and I hid it from my family because they were strictly religious people. I usually post content from ex-Muslims and I am active in this community. I am also active in the LGBTQ community and my family is not strictly supportive of LGBTQ. They don’t know what I actually do. This was the thought I believed.

One day I was using my phone and kept it in bed and went to the toilet without even closing my phone screen, leaving my phone unlocked. After a while I came out of the toilet and saw my father using my phone.

He said he just had to check something there. I was confused about what to check, especially in my phone. My father then suddenly asks me, “You’re an atheist, right?” I was so scared and tried my best to lie. I said, “Astafirullah, what are you saying daddy?” I tried my best to sound like a Muslim. Then suddenly he grabbed his belt and started hitting me hard.

He didn’t even give me a chance to say anything as he started abusing me so hard that my whole body was covered in lashes and scratches. Every morning he goes out to work and comes back in the evening and starts abusing me cruelly and also doing strange things to me.

I really don’t know what to do. Please give me some helpful ideas.

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I’m going to escape.

Hi. I am a victim of the classic scam: “we’re going on vacation!” but eventually ended up in a Muslim country in the third world. I was born and raised in Australia, but have been living in the Middle East since 2018.

I’m almost twenty now and if I don’t escape now, I’ll end up as an honor killing. My family found out that I was raped multiple times as a child by my own cousin and they told me that I am either going to marry him or they are going to kill me for bringing shame on the family name. I have to get out of here before I kill myself.

I don’t know how I’m going to do it and I know it’s not as simple as going to the airport and getting on a plane. But that part isn’t a big problem for me, it’s just that I have nowhere to go. I currently only have enough money for a plane ticket to Melbourne, but not enough to find a place to sleep.

I know this is so selfish and invasive of me, but I was wondering if there are any kind souls living in VIC who could help me until I get settled and find a job?

And please don’t tell me to wait until I’ve saved enough money for housing. Because I don’t think I’ll live to see that day.

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What’s the point of praying 5 times a day?

Perhaps the worst sin after Shirk.

If there had not been the threat of hell or the promise of heaven, who would pray? Prayer has a self-centered, almost narcissistic motive. Yet people think the sun shines out of their asses because they pray 5 times a day.

I have heard scholars say that not praying is worse than holding a child.

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My foolish Islamic studies teacher.

When I was in 7th grade, my Islamic studies teacher told us that the coronavirus is a sign of the apocalypse and that we should seek forgiveness for our sins. She claimed that a creature called ‘Caron’ had been created, and that it has now taken the form of the coronavirus. I told my friend who was sitting next to me that many people have died due to this coronavirus, so besides praying, we should also take care of our safety, wear masks and use sanitizers. My friend told the teacher about it, and the teacher made me stand up and said, ‘Dear, Muslims are pure. They pray and perform ablution; they can’t get the coronavirus.” I replied, “But so many people in other countries, including Muslims, are dying from it.” The teacher said confidently: ‘Dear, we are special people of Allah. We are Muslims; we are not unbelievers. The coronavirus cannot occur in our country; it is the mercy of Allah. It is a punishment for the disbelievers: “Coronavirus cannot occur in any Islamic country; it is the mercy of Allah, and it is the glory of Allah.”. I didn’t say anything after that. I was a Muslim at the time, but I didn’t blindly believe in such nonsense.

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How can one obtain ‘peace’ by reading the Quran?

This is something I have heard Muslims say. “I had to read the Quran to get some peace” or “I was so frustrated, but after reading some Quran I became calm.” and all I can think about is: HOW?

The whole book is just a fever dream and hate fantasy against non-Muslims. You don’t even have to go that far, chapter 2 Al Baqara (The Cow) is laced with so much hatred that it becomes nauseating. It goes on and on about how unbelievers are stupid and will be punished. Allah hates disbelievers, Allah makes them disbelieve, it goes on like a non-stop, hate-filled, evil fantasy. When I first read the Quran, I had to take several breaks from reading the second chapter because as frustrating and hateful as it was, disgusting and evil, I couldn’t handle it all.

Are you having marital problems? Let me read some An Nisa (the women) about how God created people in pairs, let me also absolutely ignore verse 34 that gives my husband the divine right to beat me or the fact that he can marry three more wives. And don’t forget the description of houris in heaven, which is assigned to your husband by pimp Allah.

How can anyone gain any peace or tranquility from reading this?

I hate being Muslim

I just wanted to say this, but I wish I had a normal life like everyone I see on the internet. I see friends hanging out, going to the beach in bikinis, going out, going to concerts, and having large, diverse groups of friends. I can’t have non-Muslim friends because they are bad people. I’m literally not allowed to do anything and I’m 21, it’s fucking depressing lol.